Biography

Shahidah Beevi. Sec 3Threeee. You cannot live without having ups and downs in life just like a lifeline. I love you.

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Sweetdesires

I WANT YOU <3

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Afiqah
Aishah
Banu
Cheryl
Delphine
Denise
Jagthi
Karthiga
Leona
Ndrea
Pavitra
Ros
Subhashini
Umairah
Wen Jun
Zaheera

Pastentries

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♥ April 2010
♥ May 2010
♥ June 2010
♥ July 2010
♥ August 2010
♥ September 2010
♥ October 2010
♥ November 2010

Creditorials

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Friday, July 30, 2010

Long time no update. A shit ended a week ago.
and now this girl's pushing her limit.
This is MY life. YOU dont mess with it.
And my Govind Annae Bro just left for ns today. :((
I am already missing him so badly. Had no hard to leave yesterday.
On National Day, I dont care what happens. I will go and see him :D
My cutecute Annae is lovedd. <3

im practicing myself to be stronger, more confident and increase my self-esteem.
i was in the low level all the time. it's time i levelled up.
I SHOW WHO I AM. dont be nice to ftards.
you can get ya arse out of the way bitches.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

yea lah. goodbye lah. i need my life i dont need fks.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Look, i dont know what the freak is going on in my life. But everyday, idk why, idk how, but there'd be at least one thing that'll stop me from moving on. wth, wth, wth. What does this gotta mean? that somehow id get back with you? NO WAY. I dont even wanna think about that. Because its just making my freakin hopes high for no reason and then after that Id come crashing down to earth again. So whats the use? URGH. life sucks. so far, 4 dreams of you. and again, wth, wth, WTH.

i wanna start anew so let me to. I dont know where this fate is bringing me to. but let me just HOPE that whatever happens, will be for my good and that I will stay happy. :)

it kills so bad. i wanna die.

i dont believe in forever. but what about a little longer. and a lil bit would go on for a looong way.

Saturday, July 10, 2010

YO. I dont know what to blog other than all the shitz. Currently chatting with Vetha. He's noobitch-y hyperr. Haha and he says its a big thing only if Ive taken 20 buses in one day. Noobshit. HAHA. still dont know about that guy properly yet.

since i have nothing better to do, im gonna state down the things and people i love.

I love Pavitra, MAI OREOLICIOUS.
You know there was actually a WHOLE LIST OF THINGS I LOVE DOWN HERE.
But then i go press edit post,
then POOF GONE.
BUT I LOVE MANY MANY MANY MANY THINGS.
and lastly,
I LOVE YOU <3




you know i know this is stupid but i think i'd feel like a slut if i love another after breaking from one.

Friday, July 9, 2010

YO. alot of shitz have happened. and im now currently waiting for my dearie BANU CUZZIE to come home. oh shiet gtg bye.

Today whole day after school spent it alone. It was relaxing. Got to think about loads of stuff.

All the buses I took today:

Goin school - 273, 145.
After school - 33, 195, 176, 124, 124, 273, 139, 33, 16, 273. SHIOK. figure out where are all the places if you can :)

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

"Things that seem to last forever, never really does."

Yesterday, you turned me numb. No more wasting tears on you. Whatever I do reminds me of you, but I dont feel any pain no more. Being numb sucks. Because I dont feel for people when I'm numb. I hope this would end soon. I really wish I could cry right now. Just to feel something, even though it's pain. I'm so used to it, ive gone NUMB.

i dont want myself to move on. it's stupid aint it? to hold on to nothing, but whatever.

we only lasted for one week & a day wtf.

Monday, July 5, 2010

THERE, THE START OF A NEW TSUNAMI.

You can freaking get lost if you're not bothered to know about my suckish life, I really wouldn't mind. Because I dont wanna spoil a happy person's mood.

Had so much to talk about. So much to tell you. But welll. Blame me, for everything. To think about it, it all comes to me. ima good girl gone bad. Thanks to EVERY DAMN THING that happened in my life. you know i suck.

Today? sucked.


You know it's like a routine. It's same ol' thing over and over gain. It's just like uno stacko. I hope and hope. But I break into a million pieces all ofa sudden. Then I regain it and I lose it. it makes me NUMB.

Saturday, July 3, 2010

tryna catch up w. life. but im naturally slow. i hand up incomplete homework. i get scolded in the first week of school. i get detention. i want to concentrate, but my mind just wanders off. im a blur sotong. i will ask what, when you've told the story finish. i give slow reactions. and i regret later then you do. I HAVE TO CHANGE ALL THIS FREAKING NB SHITZ. help me !

Yesterday went ta meet Valerie with Pavitra :))) LOVES.
But only for around one and a half hours. it was so fun. i kept changing sides with Pavitra and Valerie. HAHA. No heart to leave. Then had to chiong back. Lucky Mum hadn't came back home at that time. Now she becoming more strict and strict. wth. Thanks to me, the sleeping beauty who comes home early every weekday and all she does is sleep, sleep and sleep. Then now my mum asking me dont go out on fridays because she want teach me. wtf. HARD LIFE LA. I feel like I'm locked in a prison. Not even one day can go out? lol la. Might as well ground me. I really feel like telling my mum to ground me. To make it more official. LOL. But better to just stay as I am. She has bad impression me. HAHA, as if i care. I can only be young ONCE. so let me be.

sometimes i wonder if im dreaming. but i have to believe that its reality. at first i thought it'd be hard to face reality. but it wasnt at all. if hadn't gathered the courage, i wouldnt have gotten you. i love reality even though it can just smack problems on my face sometimes.